Relying on the 'One Who Knows'

Last week I noticed that my date book was filling up rapidly with duties and tasks for the upcoming month. As I glanced through the pages, I had quite a few business trips, meetings, events and interviews for work that very subtlety began to feel pressing.

In my mind, advance preparation seemed to be the key to handling everything efficiently and so I began working each day to plan, prepare and organize; scheduling, phoning and emailing my way into a state of complete preoccupation.

Eventually, all of this preparation began to feel more like a strong urge to control every aspect and although I usually feel past this mind-set, as I awoke this morning a million details were swimming through my head. Interestingly, when I picked up my copy of the Course my attention was drawn to the first week’s lessons in the workbook.

As I read through these lessons with Holy Spirit, I was reminded that all of my planning and preparation for what seemed so important was based on something that doesn’t actually exist; anticipation of the future…

In fact, this is the way most people think. According the Course we are constantly preoccupied with past or future thoughts to the point where our minds are actually blank most of the time, thus the perception of the illusion. This is the emptiness into which the ego rushes in to write his meaning upon our thoughts.

As a result, we reside in a dream state where we plan, prepare, organize and continually try to find meaning in a meaningless world. We attempt to control as a means by which we deal with our fear of the mundane, perpetuating the very thing that frightens us. All the while not seeing anything as it really is now which is perfect.

Once again this reminder deepened my appreciation of the need for continued mind healing and training. When with Holy Spirit I continuously bring my attention back to the present moment and step back and let Him lead the way, I notice that my desire to plan melts away, attachment to outcomes disappear and peace again becomes the natural state in which my mind dwells.

Now when I look at my date book and allow Holy Spirit to write His meaning upon it instead of my own, I see only the love that is possible in each moment as I go through my day. I release my desire to control and any fear that goes along with it. I hand over every detail and thought to the ‘One Who Knows’ and I allow circumstances and events to unfold naturally. Most importantly, I remain focused in the now where all Light and Truth can be fully experienced.

“Each small step will clear a little of the darkness away and understanding will finally come to lighten every corner of the mind that has been cleared of the debris that darkens it (W-9.2:5).”